I'm like a cat on a hot tin roof...

With every song,

with every word,

there is less of me...

Lay me down on the street...

I used to think there's just this one person in the world I'm supposed to love. That there's only one person who could be my best friend and that no one else will ever understand me the way she did. But now, as I'm meeting people I never even knew existed, it feels crazy that I was worried in the first place. Yet it was real, wasn't it? You and me. It seems like such a long time ago, we were just a couple of kids. But we really loved each other, didn't we? Some people will save your life, as did some of you. The worst thing you can do, is forget them. So now I give you my word. Even though I'll act like I don't remember, I'll never forget what you did for me, who you helped me become...

Lately I've been thinking a lot about taking chances, and how it's all really about overcoming our fears. Because what I've realised is that everytime I took a big leap, no matter how it ended, I was always glad I jumped. Losing your hearts desire is tragic, but gaining your hearts desire - it's all you can hope for, it's all you can live for. This year I wished for love, to immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel. Even though I am still waiting, the sheer steps I took to get here, bring warmth to my soul. And if that is tragic, then give me tragedy, because I wouldn't give it back for the world...

When I make a big mistake and fall flat on my face, I'm certain I'll be alright. She taught me to get up, life has taught me to get up. Never before have I been so content, so ready for the future. I know I have a long road ahead, undoubtebly filled with countless disappointments. I don't think I've ever smiled as much or felt as much joy as I do right now. The journey is going to be perfect, I can't wait...

As my conscious calls, tears crash around me...

This is about a guy trying to keep it together while falling apart. It's about men and it's about doing anything to reach your dreams. It's about believing in yourself when everyone else has given up on you. It's about letting go of your fears, and demanding a better life. It's about telling the truth, even when it might destroy you. It's about life, love, sex, and the everlooming pressence of the grim fucking reaper...