Next to you...

I guess it took a long walk through the darkness, a long walk through the darkest shadows and corners of my soul to realize that those are a part of me as well. I have refused to shine a light on something that is imperfect, because my fear of judgement and rejection. But I am now choosing to look towards the light as the only source of true beauty and love that can help me in the cleaning process. I no longer hope for understanding, no longer hope for the opinion of a calmer being. But I hope to find the words that touch the soul before the mind. I hope to find the touch that warms the heart from deep inside, and hope to find that far away abandoned part of me which I've left behind.