There is very little I can say right now, very little I can share. All I can tell you is that nothing is really wrong, yet nothing is right either. I'm still trying as hell to figure some things out, and while I've been so deeply consumed by my new surroundings, they somehow seem out of place. I'm still miles away from where I want to be, and I still lack the courage to embark upon where I dream of going. So what you're reading now, is the time in between. The time when I'm gathering myself, learning as much as I can, and preparing for the struggle ahead. My resolve gets tested on a daily basis, and my talent, or lack there of, is challenged at every turn. I wish I could tell you that I've never been happier, but as it stands now, I'm stuck in limbo, patiently waiting for my opportunity that I know might never come.
All it took was one look, one smile, one touch, and it was as if the year that has passed, held no meaning. To this day, to this very moment, you are his everything. You are the reason he does this, the reason he holds on, the reason he dreams, the reason for his thundering laughter. You are the reason he stands before you, not as a boy, but as a man. A man who is not afraid to fail, and is not scared of making mistakes. A man who'll one day walk away, and you'll wonder why he doesn't love you anymore. But he will know, only he will truly know that the love which bound you together, yet remains within his soul. "After all this time", others will wonder. "Always", he'll gently whisper.
