Stars don't disappear, they keep blazing...

Maybe it was the alcohol ... maybe it was the truth ... maybe I didn't want things to turn abstract, but I felt I should say it, or write it at least, because this was the time to proclaim it, for it suddenly dawned on me that this was why I have felt so calm for the last year, and why you are the only person I'd like to say goodbye to when I die, since only then will this thing I call my life make any sense. So I did it, just like that. No thought of the repercussions or any feelings of shame. I simply told the truth.

So right before I will forever shut my eyes, I want you to know and understand deeply, that if you remember anything, and if you truly loved me, then before you leave as well, or when you’re just ready to shut the door of us and get into a taxi because you have already said goodbye to everyone else and there’s not a thing left to say in this life, then, just for that moment, turn to me once more, or if I am already gone, envision me in your mind, even in jest, or as an afterthought, which would have meant everything to me when we were together, and, as you did back then, look me in the eyes, hold my gaze, and call me by my name.