Don't put a gun to my head...

I haven't been able to sleep ... for awhile now in fact. And it's weird because I don't wake up tired or anxious. It's as if I was amid some sort of internal awakening that is preventing me from straying off too far. It's hard for me to verbalise, because I've never felt like this before. I'm completely at ease, yet on the verge of transcending beyond anything I've ever dreamt. The snowball I've conjured keeps getting bigger, and I wonder when it will finally knock me off or if that time has already come, and I've yet to grasp it?

Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired. Smile, even when you're trying not to cry and the tears are blurring your vision. Sing, even when people stare at you and tell you your voice is crappy. Trust, even when your heart begs you not to. Twirl, even when your mind makes no sense of what you see. Frolick, even when you are made fun of. Kiss, even when others are watching. Sleep, even when you're afraid of what the dreams might bring. Run, even when it feels like you can't run any more. And, always, remember, even when the memories pinch your heart. Because the pain of all your experience is what makes you the person you are now. And without your experience - you are an empty page, a blank notebook, a missing lyric. What makes you brave is your willingness to live through your terrible life and hold your head up high the next day. So don't live life in fear. Because you are stronger now, after all the crap has happened, you are stronger than ever before.