When it all falls down...

It has been so long since I felt so ... so ashamed. As I stood up and I looked across the room, seeing the faces of everyone I thought didn't matter, my heart sank into my stomach, and the rest is a complete blank. I'm not disappointed that I failed, I'm more sad I took it for granted and allowed my arrogance to lead me astray. I have been preaching lessons for so long now, that I forgot that I too need to follow them. I have ignored that these emotions still existed ... that I was able to make a complete fool of myself and risk losing everything I worked for. So while I tried to close my eyes and sleep away the memories, I realised that these feelings of defeat were perhaps needed more than I can admit. I have been flying so high for so long that I disregarded what it means to stare failure in the eyes, and despite everything, despite anything laugh and keep on walking.