Trying my best, not to get hurt...

Peace is not always easy to grasp or keep close. In the process of attaining and protecting it, you may find yourself tired, weary, and uncertain on how to keep your peace safe. While being uncertain is normal, continue to commit yourself to the harmony in your mind. You are worthy of every drop of sweetness and ease that you encounter. Being tested is a part of the journey. Giving up, and letting go, is not.

I laid there with my mind running amuck, on the brink of madness. And somehow, gradually, early Monday morning, I became calm. I can't think of any other word for it. I was thinking about the beach again, and I started to feel as if I was being looked after, that everything was okay. It was strange: if there was ever a time in my life when I had the right to feel anxious, this was it. But I lost that sense of apprehension. I felt like there was a force in the room with me, not a person, but I had a sense that there was another world, another dimension, and it would be looking after me. But somehow, standing in the clear night air, under a sky that glowed like a shower of sparks, none of that stuff mattered. It slipped off me. It was like shedding your clothes before you step in the shower. I felt I was down to essentials again. In fact I felt very close to Her at that moment. I guess if you're ever going to feel close to a dearly departed, it'll be while you're looking at the heavens.