It's easy to see how far you are from your desired outcome. It's easy to see that you are not the man you want to be. But the easy thing is not always the best thing. It's also easy to get discouraged about the marathon that you are only a fifth of the way through. Instead of focusing solely on the hard work and pain ahead of you, maybe I should take the time to celebrate the steps I have made, the milestones I have passed. Maybe I'd feel better. Maybe I'd arrive sooner to certain realizations and maybe, just maybe I'd sleep a bit tighter. I need to make some changes, of that I am sure. To become someone better. Wiser. Calmer. Less of a boy. More of a man.