I run the days into the night...

He wants to face the uncertainty of the future with curiosity and optimism. With a belief that problems can be solved, differences resolved. He wants to be confident, and not be blackened by fear, and superstition. He doesn't want to be scared that something must, surely, go wrong, if he were this happy, with himself and the people around him. There has already been come collateral damage - people left behind because happiness was too much to bear. He wonders what else he might have to let go of. What else might be taken away. No … he will no longer succumb to the power of the jinx. He can shape his life like a cake mixture reaching the corners of the tin as it swells and bakes. And then he can eat it too.