As I sat here in utter darkness, while most of the world was still asleep, I wondered for how long I could keep up this deception. If anything is clear, is that I didn't really think all of this through. There is simply no way I can keep up this ruse. And with each passing moment it becomes clearer that I will have to bravely face the consequences of my decision. It seemed so perfect at the time, though. Like the universe was lining up circumstances exactly in my favor. I guess the lesson here is humility. To have disbelief in your trajectory, and never get blinded by the promise of a happy ending. Or perhaps the truth goes beyond that. Maybe I needed to be stripped down, as so many times before, to leave room for my newest iteration. So here I stand, devoid of ego and expectations, I give myself to you. Do with me as you will.
