He wants to do the right thing. He always does. But he thinks the right thing is martyrdom. He thinks if he suffers enough for whatever sins he has committed, then he's absolved. That's why he took the fall yesterday. Every time he comes up against something difficult, he just wants to make it go away, and he thinks the way to do that is self-flagellation. He's obsessed with punishment. But that's not how this works, does it? Him going down in flames fixes nothing. Him hanging from the gallows fixes nothing. The world's still broken. A war's still coming. The only way to properly make amends is to stop it, which you don't want to do, because really what this is about him being afraid.
