To this day I still have not figured out how to truly let go of someone. Someone who was there when I grew up, who held my hand as I gazed into the future, who cheered me on even tho I never really showed potential for anything. She taught me right from wrong, she was there when no one else was…
It is that very person that I think about almost every day. But the fact that she is forever lost to me is not what hurts the most. It’s the fact that I never got to say goodbye. I’ve pictured it a thousand times in my head, knowing full well that it cannot come even close to what the real thing would be like. It is something I can never get back and that in itself scared me for life.
I guess I’ll always be haunted by the sheer thought of being able to get even if only one chance to be a part of her life and for her to be a part of mine. But for now all I can do is put her to rest… At least for now…
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust…
