I promise I won't relent...

I'm starting to think there may be something wrong with me. I know these trivialities shouldn't have an impact on my confidence or self-respect, but I am only human, and as of recently, one navigating uncharted territory, so I guess I am a bit more fragile. I wonder why these opportunities are even presented to me in the first place, if they are taken away without just cause or explanation. Is there something more I am supposed to learn or does the simplest reason ring the most true? As always, I lack the willpower and grace to let circumstances unfold as they will - all the while hoping that the barrage of disappointment doesn't take took great a toll and that one day perhaps, I will understand why.

He thought he had done his best, but after a little reflection he determined to whether the storm - for adversity is a good school. He resolved to be patient - to command his feelings and take what came. He formed his life day by day, taking as its materials the emptiness and panic as well as the rushes, like fever, of contentment. He has came beyond the fear of solitude. He will not sink, because he now knows that the adventure of life is to learn. The purpose of life is to grow. The nature of life is to change. The challenge of life is to overcome. The essence of life is to care. The opportunity of like is to serve. The secret of life is to dare. The spice of life is to befriend. The beauty of life is to give.