Thursday, August 3, 2017

Some fairytale bliss...

I'm thinking this is too good to be true, right? There has to be some sort of catch. Something I missed and will come to bite me in the ass? And if nothing else, I have for sure jinxed it by now, haven't I? The other shoo shall drop, and I wonder how I'm going to react this time. I guess reverting back to old patterns is as good a plan as any, though it seems rather boring at this point in time. If I've really grown, then my breakdowns have to evolve as well. Something more meaningful - with a greater impact and more dire consequences. With a higher understanding of what was lost, and how much time was actually wasted.


Another page turns on the calendar, August now, not July. He is spinning the silk threads of his story, weaving the fabric of his world, for not long ago he spun out of control. Eating was hard. Breathing was hard. Living was hardest. He wanted to swallow the bitter seeds of forgetfulness ... somehow, he dragged himself out of the dark and asked for help. He spins and weaves and knits his words and visions until a life starts to take shape. There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore. He was finally starting to thaw.