I was lightning before the thunder...

Once again I am at a crossroad. One way leads me down an all too familiar path, paved with ambition, resilience and my lonesome grin. I have chosen it many times and I have grown accustomed to the way it feels. I know its pitfalls and its delights. I have tasted its nectar and have become engorged by its addictive scent. The other ... is uncharted territory. It demands patience and understanding - a grounded ego and steady resolve. I have yet to master the logic behind it, as it avidly avoids definition. I have nothing to compare it to and no reliable map to guide me. All I have is my heart and its soft beat to warn me of dangers ahead. What does one choose then? How does one cross the threshold and continue onward? Two completely different turns, the consequences of both detrimental to my future. Is anyone out there? Does anyone know?