I literally have no idea how this is going to work out. Never before have I been so unable to predict the outcome of my circumstance. Usually I can at least sum up my karma and predict which way life shall swing, yet now, as I wait for answers that shall irrevocably shape my future, I am at a loss for predictions. Is it weird that I'm still so happy, though? I can feel every inch of my body pulsing with life. Beating in the rhythm of my heart, singing a song of triumph and defeat, of sorrow and bliss. Of kingdom come.
If we only had eyes to see and ears to hear and wits to understand, we would know that the kingdom in the sense of holiness, goodness, beauty is as close as breathing and is crying out to be born both within ourselves and within the world; we would know that the kingdom is what we hunger for above all other things even when we don't know its name or realise that it's what we're starving to death for. The kingdom is where our best dreams come from and our truest prayers. We can take a glimpse at those moments when we find ourselves being better than we are and wiser than we know. We catch sight of it when at some moment of crisis a strength seems to come to us that is greater than our own. It is where we belong. It is home, and whether we realise it or not, I think we are all homesick for it.