I am brave, I am bruised...

I think I have stumbled upon the key to successful relationships, and it lies not in emotion, but in completely rational train of thought. You simply have to recognising who can fulfil what - naturally. Relationships fail and we remain discontent because we are forcefully trying one to fill all the needs we might have. Passion, humor, safety … There are so many things in this world that we aspire to have - how could one person possibly fulfil them all? This is a powerful realisation, when it hits you, it can make you more content with who you have decided to spend your life with. It allows you to be more content with yourself. You cannot be everything for someone … just as no one person can be everything for you.

I'm not a stranger to the dark...

Wouldn't it be something if we could see the whole scale of it? As it stands now; if you drive down a long curvy road, you don't see the twists and turns until you are on top of them. Imagine being able to witness things from a much higher perspective. The whole road and the twists and the turns and the beginning and the end. I'd like to believe that there is someone above me that can recognise where I am in relation to where I am going and she can make things happen along the way at the intersections of my life. She can create the right time and the right place and she can already see how it all ends. She can see the whole story of my life while I am living it in little bits and pieces. Quite the thought, isn't it?

Look out, because here I come...

 

The greatest showman...

I am not a stranger to the dark,

hide away, they say,

because we don't want your broken parts.

I've learned to be ashamed of all my scars,

run away, they say,

no one'll love you as you are.

But I won't let them break me down to dust,

I know that there's a place for us,

for we are glorious.

Will do anything when the time is right...

In the proper sense, this is not a standard blog. It is what one might call "an exploration of self". Without the cringe. What I am searching for - with increasing clarity as the years progress - is something akin to the heart's natural resonance. I try to listen to it. Have conversations with it, where I am the interviewer and he the interviewee. But what I often heard were the vibrations of my soul. Something I could never quite decipher, but always fully understood. I recognised it as having long been a part of me, and at other times it came as a complete surprise. Like a long held breath waiting to be exhaled or a flicker of light trying to push away the darkness.

It became clear he could not start something without finishing it. If he climbed onto the boundary wall, he was compelled to walk the entire way, no matter the obstructions in his path. This compulsion, applied to other fields, manifested itself as an obsession. Almost as a psychosis, because something always led to something else, another goal, a process, of course, that could never be completed. This route through early life gave him no small portion of distress, and, indeed, it seemed at first that his desires and his capacities were basically always misaligned. Now he is starting to think if this is perhaps his greatest asset. Wasn't it possible that what he mistook for lunacy was in fact simply a very pure manifestation of who his truly is? Of who he can truly become?

Giving it everything I got...

The way it made me smile...

The best day of your life is the one on which you decide that your journey is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing opportunity - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it; where it takes you and if it, someday perhaps, leads you home. And what is home, if not a place you make up in your own mind? Something you dream about and sing about. Maybe it's not a place on the map at all, but just a story full of people you meet and places you visit, full of books and films you've been to. I'm not afraid of being homesick and having no language to live in. I don't have to be like anyone else. I'm walking on the wall and nobody can stop me.

Of broken promises and what could have been...

 

Know my love infinite...

Suppose you get a feeling to punch someone. If you act on it, a war breaks out with that person. If you resist the feeling, a war breaks out with yourself within your head. That is even worse. Accept all your feelings no matter how wrong they seem to you. Drink them in their original flavour. But act on them only and only if you want that person in the story of your life as a villain or hero. So when your opponent strikes you on your cheek, you strike her in the heart by your amazing spiritual audacity in turning the other cheek. You wrest the offensive from her by refusing to take his weapons, by keeping your own, and by striking her in his conscience from a higher level. She hits you physically, and you hit her spiritually. 

Calling out for the rope...

Oh, misty eye of the mountain below,

keep careful watch of my brother's soul,

and should the sky be filled with fire and smoke,

keep watching over our future sons.

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If this is to end in fire,

then we should all burn together,

watch the flames climb high into the night.

Walk the line and try to see...

Concerning all acts of initiative and creation, there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issue from the decision, raising in one's favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamt would come his way. 

Beware the irrational, however seductive. Shun the transcendent and all who invite you to subordinate or annihilate yourself. Don't be afraid to be thought arrogant or selfish. Picture all experts as if they were mammals. Never be a spectator of unfairness or stupidity. Seek out argument and disputation for their own sake; the grave will provide plenty of time for silence. For it is said that the boldest thing you can do is think for yourself, but I believe that it is bolder still to act on those thoughts and ideas despite certain criticism and objections. To be true to yourself - to look straight into your own eyes reflected in the mirror and be loyal to the person you see - is to be bold indeed.

Maybe there's something I can take for this...

Keep you coming back for more...

 

Only so much until it's gone...

It is important not to suppress your feelings altogether when you are angry. It is equally important to avoid terrible arguments or expressions of outrage. You should steer clear of emotionally damaging behaviour. People forgive, but it is best not to stir things up to the point at which forgiveness is required. When you are raging, you need the love of other people, and yet furor fosters actions that destroy that love. It's like sticking pins into your own life rafts. Then, all that's left, is for the conscious mind to intervene. One is not helpless. Holding a grudge and harbouring resentment is poison to the soul. Get even with people, but not those who have hurt us, forget them, instead get even with those who have helped us.

Moonlight dances in my eyes...

Here is a story that's stranger than strange.

Before we begin you may want to arrange:

a blanket, a cushion, a comfortable seat,

and maybe some cocoa and something to eat.

I’ll warn you, of course, before we commence,

my story is eerie and full of suspense,

brimming with danger and narrow escapes,

and creatures of many remarkable shapes.

Dragons and ogres and gorgons and more,

and creatures you've not even heard of before.

And faraway places? There's plenty of those!

And menacing villains to tingle your toes.

So ready your mettle and steady your heart.

It's time for my story's mysterious start.

Tired of standing still...

Do as little harm to others as you can; make any sacrifice for your true friends; be responsible for yourself and ask nothing of others; and grab all the fun you can. Don't give much thought to yesterday, don't worry about tomorrow, live in the moment, and trust that your existence has meaning even when the world seems to be all blind chance and chaos. Even when all you seem to be doing is for circumstances to unfold, for your life to finally start after a stream of stagnation. When life lands a hammer blow in your face, do your best to respond to the hammer as if it had been a cream pie. Because as it turns out, sometimes, the only way to make your dreams come true is to shatter them.