Wish I could explain it better...

People can be messy, because we're not only defined by what we've done up to any specific point, but by what we would have done, under different circumstances, molded as much by our regrets as our actions, choices we stood by and those we wished they could undo. Sometimes our entire history, what was and what could have been, comes crashing into a single decision, and everyone around suffers collateral damage. Of course, there was also no going back - time only moved forward - but people could change. For worse. And for better. It wasn't easy. The world was complicated. Life was hard. And so often, living hurt. I try to make it worth the pain.