Wish I could explain it better...

This year was the first time I forgot about her birthday. Well not really forgot ... just didn't really pay attention to. I could blame it on being exhausted from the day before or getting too enveloped in my latest obsession, but the bottom line is that I feel like I let her down. It's been so many years now, of holding on and remembering that I perhaps started taking it for granted. Or maybe this is just what time does. It slowly erodes at everything you once held dear. So quietly erasing, that you don't even notice, how one day, you are a completely different person. With unfamiliar memories and a path behind you that feels ancient in design. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm sorry. And I'll try to do better. If only to conjure up the ones I used to love.