Did you ever try really hard to impress certain people? Well I've worked my ass of for the last 3 years, thinking of almost nothing else than looking good in their eyes, being accepted into their world, being able to stand side by side with them and be treated as their equal. Now after all this time, I finally gained their respect, and as I gazed into them as we stood on the same level of the playing field, I saw something I never did before. It was like my judgement of these individuals had been clouded by my idealisation of what they represented...
The sad thing is that it's quite possible that they don't realise how pathetic they truly are. But now that I've seen their true colours, I can break free of their grip over me. Now the question remains; do I want to be set free at all? I mean if I stay under their chains, and at the same time know that those chains are merely fictional, they would still believe I am not a threat, the illusion they live in would remain intact, which would allow me to take control over everything, without them even knowing and when they would start to grasp what happened it would be to late...
I think it boils down to what kind of person I want to be. One that conspires, deceives and manipulates or someone who is honest, decent, kind... Who would She want me to be?
