Did you ever look for something so badly you could barely keep up with yourself? Spending all this time and energy for what you think will make you whole again. Then one day, you look around and you realise you had it all along. Well I think that's bullshit. We just tell ourselves it was there, because deep down we know we'll never have it. It's easier that way. To pretend, to act like we're the person we want to be. What's truly hard and what truly makes you understand the world we live in, is to simply admit that we'll always chase something that's out of reach, because we'll always desire more than we can have. We will always be in the meadows...
I haven't been completely honest with you. I lied about something. I'm not sure why. Maybe I wanted to protect you, to protect myself. Either way, I'm not proud of how I handled things, but if it's any consolation, I plan on being brutally truthful next time. Cutting the strings we use to play each other, in an effort to embrace what our lives can become, without the constant burden of giving a damn...
