And I don't remember the exact moment everything changed, I just know that it did. One minute I was unpenetrable, the next my heart was somehow beating outside my chest, exposed to the elements. Loving you has been the most profound, intense, painful experience in my life. In fact it's been almost too much to bear. When I found out you got sick, I made a silent vow to protect you, never realising that I was the one who would end up hurting you the most...
When you grow older, a dreadful, horrible sensation will come over you. It's called loneliness, and you think you know what it is now, but you don't. Because you can be surrounded by countless people, yet you can still be alone. I care for nothing anymore, and everything at the same time. Noble in thought, weak in action. Something has to change, something has to give. It's getting dark, too dark too see...
The best feeling in the universe is knowing that you finally took a step in the right direction, a step towards the future where everything you never thought possible, is possible. Sometimes we spend so much time and effort trying to believe in something, that we forget to step back and look at the big picture of our life. And the thing we must never forget is that courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes it is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying: I will try again tomorrow...
