Chasing the last train...

I hate when people say that you don't know what you have until it's gone. The truth is, we know what we have, we just think we'll never lose it. No ending can be right, because it shouldn't be over at all. The magic isn't supposed to go away. Yet sometimes we are faced with circumstances we can't control and we find ourselves hurting the people we love. Goodbye really is the hardest word, especially when you're forced to say it. I wonder if I'll ever find that spark again, I wonder if we'll ever be the same...

Life isn't like the stories we read - we can't stop when we're bored or go back and relive some parts, we can't jump ahead and we can't switch to a new one. This is my reality now. Not the life I had once dreamt of, not a life my younger self would ever had imagined or desired. But it is the life I'm living with all its complexities, built with care and attention, and it's good, it's great, it's perfect...

The first time I saw you, my heart fell, and I'm pretty sure I never got it back. The second time I saw you, you took my soul. Then everytime since, my entire body ached. When I see you, the world stops spinning, and all that exists for me, is you. There's nothing else. No noise, no people, no thoughts or worries. No yesterday, no tomorrow. The world stops and in that moment it's such a beautiful place because of you, just you...