The book of life is long and boring...

I'm so used to looking for somebody, even though I know there's never anybody there. There are moments when I almost give up, when I almost stop trying, yet there's always something that pushes me back. This time it was a dream. And I hate to admit this, but it was about you again. You showed up on my doorstep. Not with anything special, just you. And when I opened the door you just stood there smiling, while I was trying to figure out what the hell you're doing here. You said how hard the last few months have been, how much you've thought of me and how much you regretted everything. Then when you asked me to forgive you, I did - without hesitation. Then somehow everything seemed perfect again.

The truth is, we only hide because we want to be found. We break hearts to see what they truly mean to us. We only walk away, because we want to see who will follow. Have you ever heard a song from so long ago, with so many memories that it made you cry? And didn't you wish that you could go back, if only for just a moment, to when everything was so simple and our lives were so carefree? I love how these melodies can take me back through time and make it seem as if no time had passed at all.

I never think that the last time is really the last time. I always think there will be more, I think I have forever. Striving for infinity and taking any path I think can lead me there. It has not been easy, and I have lost many people along the way - some changed me in a way I could have never imagined. They brushed the surface only to cull the depths of my soul. To them, to you, I shall forever be grateful. Together we crawled through this mysterious thing they call life. Together we uncovered misteries and secrets and we helped each other find balance. Perhaps one day, we can do it again...