It's going to be great. I think I deserve everything to go smoothly this time. If not, then I really changed for nothing. I could pretend like I did it for myself, but we all know that isn't true. It was never about me, it was always about them and their world. I have continuously found its wall impossible to breach. All I ever did was brush the surface, I was never allowed further. Perhaps I'll never fit in, maybe it just wasn't meant to be. I know most of you find me pathetic, caring so much about what they think, but really, who are you to judge me? I admit, I didn't have to go through the pain some of you have, but then again, you can't understand my pain as well. Our stories are different, and so is our pain. The one thing we have in common though, is our everlasting desire to escape from the life we knew and embrace the life we might one day have.
I think I was born to be stubborn, to push people, to push myself. Even at an early age I was taught to never take life for granted. So even when things get rough, I know at the back of my mind that I'll be fine. I was taught to never give up, to believe in myself, and most of all to fight for myself. Not a day goes by, that I don't repeat those lessons in my head, that I don't think of the promise I made to her. Not a day goes by that I don't remember the agony I caused. It has been a staggering journey, to say the least. And I realised that when you're different, sometimes you don't see the hundreds of people who accept you for who you are. All you notice, is the people who don't.
I think I was born to be stubborn, to push people, to push myself. Even at an early age I was taught to never take life for granted. So even when things get rough, I know at the back of my mind that I'll be fine. I was taught to never give up, to believe in myself, and most of all to fight for myself. Not a day goes by, that I don't repeat those lessons in my head, that I don't think of the promise I made to her. Not a day goes by that I don't remember the agony I caused. It has been a staggering journey, to say the least. And I realised that when you're different, sometimes you don't see the hundreds of people who accept you for who you are. All you notice, is the people who don't.
