You know how every now and then, you come to a moment where your whole life stretches out ahead like a forked road. Then when you choose one gritty path, you've got your eyes on the other the whole time, certain that you're making a mistake. I've been hidding for too long, I know. It was just so much easier and I found an unbelievable amount of comfort in my solitude. But now, as I'm rushed back into existence, I'm more afraid than ever. What if history repeats itself? What if they don't see the person I am, but the person I was. In my darkest thoughts I imagine how easy it would be to vanish, to sleep forever, and make all the problems of today, just disappear into thin air. I think, how simple it would be, to march towards the celestial gate and await the final lie...
I used to think that when I got older, the world would make more sense. But you know what? The older I get, the more confusing everything is to me. You'd think we'd get better at this, at living, yet the more steps I take, the more lost I seem to get. The lights, which have always guided me home, seem to flicker beneath the stars, slowly dying out. And as a gloomy darkness sets it, I have trouble finding my way. I don't think I've ever felt like this before. So void of hope and aspiration. Maybe it really is time to give up...
Someday someone is going to look at you with a light in their eyes you've never seen. They'll look at you like you're everything they've been looking for their entire lives. Wait for it, because trust me, it's coming. The trick is to be ready when it does indeed arrive. You can't let fear ruin it for you. You have to embrace it, you have to accept it, then you have to nourish it and if you're lucky, it will stay with you forever...
I used to think that when I got older, the world would make more sense. But you know what? The older I get, the more confusing everything is to me. You'd think we'd get better at this, at living, yet the more steps I take, the more lost I seem to get. The lights, which have always guided me home, seem to flicker beneath the stars, slowly dying out. And as a gloomy darkness sets it, I have trouble finding my way. I don't think I've ever felt like this before. So void of hope and aspiration. Maybe it really is time to give up...
Someday someone is going to look at you with a light in their eyes you've never seen. They'll look at you like you're everything they've been looking for their entire lives. Wait for it, because trust me, it's coming. The trick is to be ready when it does indeed arrive. You can't let fear ruin it for you. You have to embrace it, you have to accept it, then you have to nourish it and if you're lucky, it will stay with you forever...
