Become the beast...

I need to be alone. I need to ponder my choices and my path in seclusion; I need the sunshine and the paving stones of the streets without companions, without conversation, face to face with myself, with only the music of my heart for company.

I have learned to cherish my solitude. Maybe to a fault. I can take trains by myself to places I have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive without knowing where I'm going. To go so far away that I stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when I don't want to do something. Say yes if my instincts are strong, even if everyone around me disagrees. I had to decide whether I wanted to be liked or admired. To decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what I'm doing here. I had to learn how to believe in something. How to believe in myself.