I'm down for the ride...

I am sad to think that the worst case scenario is coming true. Of all the hardships I had to face so far, none seem to sting as much as the injustice of seeing someone you love get overlooked. The look of disappointment they give you, when they seek comfort in your eyes is heart wrenching. Even more punishing than the simple act of waiting. It's as if I've stepped off the edge of a cliff, and even though my heart's in my mouth and my stomach is in knots, I'm the most scared I've ever been in my life. I want to save both of us from the agony of unspent promises. And I want to be able to look in his eyes and say something meaningful. That would somehow make it okay.