It's not that I ever expected much from my birthday. It was never something that was all that important to me. But today, as I am literally more in shambles than I've ever been in my adult life, I could really use a bit of birthday magic. I'm not a bad person. I didn't act maliciously. And I sure as hell didn't want any of this. So what is the way out? To cave in to a bully? Or to fight a losing battle? Or just give up, and move on? Or march on towards what is just? I wish she were here right about now. She'd know what to say, how to act, and tell me that despite it all, I am going to be okay.
