Now you're just memories on my wall...

While it's everything I wished for, it's nowhere near what I dream of, to this very day, to this very moment. I had hoped I would have been able to tell you that it's beyond anything I ever imagined and in a way it is, yet somehow it falls short. Maybe I need to give it more time. Maybe this is just another phase I have to go through to once again transcend beyond my limitations. And maybe, just maybe, I'll get my answers soon.

They popped into my head today. All of them individually, then all of a sudden, all of them at once. The loves that passed me by. The one's I gave my heart to, but didn't receive their's in turn. The one's who I let break me down and take pieces of me. Vital pieces, those I thought I couldn't live without. Yet still I stand, still I hold my head high, still I breathe and still I search for that one single soul, who won't steal, yet will give, and I shall cherish with every fiber of my being. The one, who will at long last, break the spell, and set me free.

Stuck in heavy clouds of rain...

No more tears, my heart is dry,

I don't laugh and I don't cry.

I don't think about you all the time,

but when I do, I wonder, why?

Little me, and little you,

kept doing all the things they do,

I never really thought it through,

and I can't believe you're true.

All the stories we could have told...

Here I go again, the blame, the guilt,

the pain, the hurt, the shame.