Friday, October 21, 2011

Standing by, waiting at your backdoor...

I'm speechless, because I was wrong. You are flawless. And once again the universe has proven how I'm nothing more than its bitch, who she can play with, who she can control. There could have been no greater taunt, no greater lesson in where my place is in this world. You are without question, far beyond anything I could ever aspire too. Perfection personified, in a way very few things are. You are the essence of every broken dream I've ever had. That's why I feel so intensely about you. I guess in my twisted mind I believe that if we'd be together, I'd be able to repair all the other shattered pieces as well. One day I'll look back at these times, and think; that's when my life changed in every imaginable way. I knew from the second I saw you that you would transform my world. The funny part though, is that you'll never know, that you'll never be mine. I however, will always be yours. All you have to do, is make a move. Go ahead, I dare you.


You can recall the creases caused by the smile on a loved one's lips or the way tears crept to your eyes. But pain is hard to put into words and in life there is always pain. It is as natural as birth or death. Pain shapes us. It teaches us and tames us. I can destroy us and save us. But always, without exception, when it happens, it takes our breath away. It turns us into stone, and then we have to be strong enough to break through the tough exterior. What's left is who we are, who we're meant to be. I'd like to believe each and every one of us represents a star in the pitch black sky. We can shine with the rest, sometimes we twinkle alone, and sometimes when we least expect it, we make someone else's dream come true.