I am content with where I am. I've said goodbye to people I never thought I would, but I've also said hello to a couple of new one's as well. The agony of holding on, was just so much greater than the pain of letting go. So I did, and now I'm heading for limbo. Even though life keeps closing doors and shutting windows, I know I'll endure. Because if anything, I've always been handy with a sledgehammer. I was a fool to think it would be easier this time, I realise that now. It's not supposed to be simple. It's meant to be the hardest thing I'll ever do. I've lost my fear of failure and it's been the most liberating experience I could have imagined. As I look around and see the shattered pieces of all which once was, I make s silent pledge. Never again shall I settle for less than I deserve.
I'm not sure when my story began, and I certainly don't know how it's going to end, so I guess what you're reading is everything in between. All I can hope for, all I've ever wished for, is that some of you will come along for the ride. As much as I hate to admit it, I can't do it alone. And come to think of it, I don't want to do it by myself anymore. I don't want to be self-sufficient, I don't want to be strong, I don't want to walk this empty street with my head held high. At the core of it, I think I just need to belong. Because together we are so much stronger, so much louder. This might be another one of my fantasies again, but I don't care. Rather a boulevard of broken dreams, than a life without them. I'll set fire to the rain, just wait and see.
I'm not sure when my story began, and I certainly don't know how it's going to end, so I guess what you're reading is everything in between. All I can hope for, all I've ever wished for, is that some of you will come along for the ride. As much as I hate to admit it, I can't do it alone. And come to think of it, I don't want to do it by myself anymore. I don't want to be self-sufficient, I don't want to be strong, I don't want to walk this empty street with my head held high. At the core of it, I think I just need to belong. Because together we are so much stronger, so much louder. This might be another one of my fantasies again, but I don't care. Rather a boulevard of broken dreams, than a life without them. I'll set fire to the rain, just wait and see.
