I had a dream about you last night in what feels like ages. It's not that you haven't been on my mind, I just think I've grown used to looking for you, even though I know you're never there. I dreamt I was fourteen years old again, with my whole life ahead of me, and you took me in your arms, and said that one day I would reach the stars. You spoke with such conviction, you were so sure, I almost believed you. I don't think I've ever missed you as much as I miss you right now. Sometimes I wonder if you'd be proud of the person I've become. I wonder if you'd accept me for who I am, and not push me into being who everyone wants me to be. But one thing I never question, is whether you'd be on my side, because I know that no matter what, you would always love me, and I think in a way, you still do. It's just a thought, only a thought, but perhaps one day, when I exhale my last breath, we shall meet again, and everything will be as it should, as it was meant to be.
I say this without hope or agenda. Without pretense or illusion. Without remorse or regret. Without contention or deceit. I say this with upmost pride and dignity. I say this with a sparkle in my eyes and a smile on my face. I say this with hope and confidence for the future. To me, someone who is flawed and raw as few dare to be, you are perfectly unperfect. You showed me things without even knowing it, and you taught me more than I ever thought I could learn. I hope you find what you're looking for, because I really do wish you the best. I've charted my path, set my goal, and now I'm on my way. Who knows where I'll end up, or if I'll even make it at all. But that's the beauty of it. That's why the future is so exciting. Because it's sort of like a dare, it's potential, and in the end, it's all we have left.
I say this without hope or agenda. Without pretense or illusion. Without remorse or regret. Without contention or deceit. I say this with upmost pride and dignity. I say this with a sparkle in my eyes and a smile on my face. I say this with hope and confidence for the future. To me, someone who is flawed and raw as few dare to be, you are perfectly unperfect. You showed me things without even knowing it, and you taught me more than I ever thought I could learn. I hope you find what you're looking for, because I really do wish you the best. I've charted my path, set my goal, and now I'm on my way. Who knows where I'll end up, or if I'll even make it at all. But that's the beauty of it. That's why the future is so exciting. Because it's sort of like a dare, it's potential, and in the end, it's all we have left.
