One less problem without you...

As his inner demons take hold and all the love he might feel shall soon vanish beneath the rubble of the destruction he is about to cause, he is calm and steady - for he has been here before. He has written these words, he has thought these thoughts and he has done everything that comes next. Nothing has changed, especially not his rotting heart and soul. They have taken even a stronger hold over his body and in truth, he has no control at all. They twist reality, making it seem worse than it is, making him act in ways that push people away, solely to uphold the pretence that he is being protected. Yet there is no guardianship here, no love for the wicked, the lost and the forgotten. He has made his wish and as much as he tries to rescind it, the strands of time have already been too long at work to change his trajectory. So he is headed straight towards sunlight, touching stars he passes by, and hoping they would stop him in his tracks. The boy who dreams, can never be awake, and the boy who wants the universe, surely needs to start with the sun.