I'll lie and you'll believe...

I take a lot of things for granted. I'm never satisfied and I take that as a blessing and a curse. I always want to be more, to experience more, to achieve more, yet there comes a point when all I want to be is myself. But I think these battles are the ones keeping me sane...

You were the only thing that was real to me. We all wear masks, everyone, everyday. Sometimes we wear them so much we forget who we are. And sometimes, if we're lucky, someone comes along and shows us who we really want to be, who we should be. You were that person for me. On the first day of our story, our future seemed so bright. I don't know why I'm still surprised it turned out the way it did. I think it was something we had to go through, something we had to endure...

Do you ever get the feeling you've missed your chance at true love? Like you somehow screwed it up and now it's never going to happen. We sit and wait for things to unfold, to fall in love, to be loved, yet it seems to never come. Maybe my expectations are just too high. Maybe amid all the sacrifices I made, to reach the stars, I unknowingly destroyed any chance at love. But it was not I who left, it was you with your unfailing faith. With your magical smile and godly eyes. It was you who killed the lovers heart and my heart in turn...

You're miss nothing, I'm mister everything...

Here we are and I can't think from all the pills.

Here we are and I can't see straight.

Here we are and you're too drunk to hear a word I say.

But I'm too numb to feel right now,

yet still here I am, watching the clock that's ticking away.

Just tonight, it's telling me I'm right...

It can't be true, it just can't...

All things manifest from nothing. Leave space, lots of space, in your life. Start the car and take me home, so we can throw it all away. When the light hits my eyes, something is telling me I knew all along. I can't graps it, there must be another explaination. I couldn't possibly have... No. It makes no sense, yet it makes all the sense in the world. But why now? Why me? Why did I believe?

Do you understand who I am? Do you understand what I can do? There's no way, it... can take me down, even if it does exist. If this is some sort of joke, it's a bit cruel don't you think? If it isn't, then you truly weren't kidding when you said, life has a way of testing us when we least expect it. So many scenarios running through my head, yet none of them seem to end with me getting past this. You didn't prepare me for this, you never said something like this could even be a possibility. You should have been more aware of where I was going, so you could have steared me in the other way. It's because of you that I'm here today...

I can't even see straight anymore. I need an answer to this, someone to tell me, it's all just in my head, that I'm fine. It's too soon to say goodbye, to say farewell, to sing my swan song. I'm too numb to feel right now, so just for tonight lets pretend like we're together. Just for tonight, just for a moment, for a second even. Lets pretend we're happy, you know, like we always dreamt of?