It can't be true, it just can't...

All things manifest from nothing. Leave space, lots of space, in your life. Start the car and take me home, so we can throw it all away. When the light hits my eyes, something is telling me I knew all along. I can't graps it, there must be another explaination. I couldn't possibly have... No. It makes no sense, yet it makes all the sense in the world. But why now? Why me? Why did I believe?

Do you understand who I am? Do you understand what I can do? There's no way, it... can take me down, even if it does exist. If this is some sort of joke, it's a bit cruel don't you think? If it isn't, then you truly weren't kidding when you said, life has a way of testing us when we least expect it. So many scenarios running through my head, yet none of them seem to end with me getting past this. You didn't prepare me for this, you never said something like this could even be a possibility. You should have been more aware of where I was going, so you could have steared me in the other way. It's because of you that I'm here today...

I can't even see straight anymore. I need an answer to this, someone to tell me, it's all just in my head, that I'm fine. It's too soon to say goodbye, to say farewell, to sing my swan song. I'm too numb to feel right now, so just for tonight lets pretend like we're together. Just for tonight, just for a moment, for a second even. Lets pretend we're happy, you know, like we always dreamt of?