Lets go all the way...

We all need a way to reduce stress, the tension. Because sooner or later life just becomes too much to bear. If the pressure doesn't find a way out, it will make one - it will explode. But for me, the biggest pressure is the one I put on myself. The pressure to be better than I already am, to be better than I think I can be. It never lets up, it just builds and builds until I'm lying on the floor screaming my heart out...

How are you fine? How are you just competely fine? It's as if you didn't feel the same things or even worse. I'm still looking for answers, even though most of the time they're hidding just under the surface. Sometimes they catch me by surprise and they always leave as many questions as they take. You went through the scariest thing a person can go through, yet you survived. Now you're telling me you're afraid to jump?

I want to grow up, I'm desperate to get there, even though I know that growing up sometimes means leaving people behind. And by the time you're standing on your own two feet, you're standing there alone. I don't want to be by myself anymore, I don't want to sacrifice anything else. Because no matter how big of a freak I turn out to be, I know there's someone out there for me. I'm going to live the teenage dream, just you wait...