I hate disappointing people. Even more than I hate disappointing myself. It's sad really but I just can't help but care what other people think. And the worst part isn't that I end up obsessing about all of my actions that let people down, the worst part is that I find it extremly hard to say no, to basically anything, to anyone...
So I try my best and work as hard as I can, to make sure I maintain the image that people have of me. I make sure I live up to other peoples expectations, because in a twisted way, by doing so, I also live up to mine...
But every so often, I do something that shatters that illusion and reveals the ugly truth. After that happens I always jump into fixing mode and try to salvage what's left of the illusion and reinstate it into their minds. But not anymore. I'm done playing games. Today they pushed me to my limit. You want the truth? Well come and get it...
