Why is it that we can never just be happy with what we have? Why do we always want more? The second one of our wishes comes true, we start wishing about something else. The moment when we're supposed to be happy and grateful that our dream came true, fades away so quicky. It's funny if you really think about. I mean what's even the point then? Isn't it all about reaching that state of mind, where you no longer feel like you have to obsess about the future and you can be happy? Just where you are...
But no, here I am literally laughing about the fact, that I am once again exactly where I was. I'm barely keeping it together, even while writing this thing that is not a blog. It's just so hilarious...
Maybe it's a good thing. My ambition and never ending hunger is what got me here in the first place. Maybe it's just how I'm built. Because if that's the case, then I guess the only thing left for me to do, is to take myself apart and start putting the pieces back into something, that I'll one day truly be proud of. I have my work cut out for me this time. I just hope I don't end up building the same thing I built so many years ago...
