There comes a moment when all you can do is take a deep breath, close your eyes and jump. It's terrifying, not because the fall might hurt, but because it might just be the best thing I'll ever do. I know it sounds silly, yet I almost wish that it all doesn't work out, that I end up drowning in the vast ocean of unfulfilled wishes and broken dreams. I almost wish that I'd never find my way back and that in itself is really screwed up...
So I sit here and wait. I wait for her, I wait for all of you to lend me a hand and pull me out of the twisting nether. I can't belive how far I've sunk, that I feel the need to call for others to break me out, something I dreaded not so long ago. It just goes to show how circumstances change. I'm still not sure if people do, but I guess that's one more thing I need to figure out before I have the courage to jump...
I have a feeling something big is around the corner. I can usually sense these things and I hate that I do, because it would be a lot easier to simply not know and let everything surprise you as it comes. I can't ignore my senses, my instincts, no matter how much I wish I could. She's coming to claim what's rightfully her's. To impose justice and order. To balance the playing fields, that seem so drastically out of place...
