I did it again. It just sort of happened. I didn't mean to do it. I swear it was an accident. I would never do something like that willingly. It's beyond my comprehension how I manage to do such stupid things. I just can't seem to learn. And for that, I have no one else to blame but me...
Why do I do the things I do, when I know other people can get seriously hurt? There is no excuse for my behaviour. But I need you all to know that I started out with the best of intentions. I guess I just wanted them to see it, to recognise it, the thing that makes them special. I guess that's what anybody wants. To be seen, to be accepted for who they are. I tried to help. I truly did. But then the lines, I set up as a safeguard, got blury. That combined with the fact that everything is in such a wierd place right now, created one big stinking mess...
I'm sorry I let you down. I don't know how much more I'll be able to say I'm sorry before it doesn't mean anything anymore. But I have this strange feeling, I'm going to find out...
