My fifteen minutes of fame...

When something good happens in our life, we all too often let it slip by without really enjoying it and taking advantage of all the new doors and windows which suddenly opened. I know I was like that for a long time, but now I'm ready to milk my recent achievement for all it has, I won't let it go till the last drop, god knows I deserve it...

I just hope I don't get star-struck. If it all gets into my head, like it did a few years ago, history is doomed to repeat itself. But I'm confident that I'll do better this time, I pledged that I would and now I'm trying my best to balance "fame" and all the monsters that come with it. I'm guessing She's testing me again, to see if I've learned anything. She wants me to fail, I can sense it. I won't give Her the satisfaction. She won far to many times, always gloating afterwards, it makes me sick just thinking about it. I'll show everyone how I'm not the same person I was 4 years ago, but most importantly I have to show myself...

Good things do happen. Sometimes they're not exactly the way you pictured them, they're not quite the dream you fantasised about everyday, but at least it's something. What occured is far from what I thought would make me whole again, yet somehow I feel like it was enough to give me a push in the right direction...