I'm anxious, I really am. More so than ever before. I realise that in the past I've been full of bullshit, but this time I know it to be true, because I truly have no idea what I'm doing, or where the fuck I'm heading - and I love it. Now it finally isn't about the destination anymore, it's about the ride. So even when I find myself overwhelmed, I just inhale a big breath, and suddenly all the ghosts, which torment me, lose hold. The present just seems so exciting, doesn't it? It's filled with endless possibility and hope. I roar, and for the first time in my life, I can hear the echo of my screams. No longer do I shout in vain. No longer do I gaze without intent. This is a new chapter for sure, and as I turn each page, I find myself feeling content, I find myself feeling alive.
I love how they make me feel. I love how they enlighten details I could never see. I love how they accept me without questioning, without fear. I love how they made me love myself again. It's everything about them. Every touch lights me on fire, sets me ablaze. And even though I walk on virgin territory, with my innocence intacked, I'm not afraid of what lies before me. It was always meant to unfold this way, I was always meant to walk this road. I'm through apologising for things I cannot control and I'm through with being laced in selfdoubt. I've taken the first step, now it's time to leap. Now it's time to fly.
I love how they make me feel. I love how they enlighten details I could never see. I love how they accept me without questioning, without fear. I love how they made me love myself again. It's everything about them. Every touch lights me on fire, sets me ablaze. And even though I walk on virgin territory, with my innocence intacked, I'm not afraid of what lies before me. It was always meant to unfold this way, I was always meant to walk this road. I'm through apologising for things I cannot control and I'm through with being laced in selfdoubt. I've taken the first step, now it's time to leap. Now it's time to fly.
