The reason I find it so hard to be happy, is because I always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be. When I have the courage to take a step back, and look at the bigger picture of my life, even my darkest parts can't deny that things aren't as bad as I try to convince myself they are. And while there are many things I still want, many things I still need, somehow I know that I'll make it whether I get them or not. And I'm sure of that, because I've given everything I possibly could, I did everything one is supposed to and everything most never dare. And if wearing my heart on my sleeve will be my downfall, then there truly is no other way I would rather go. Today, as I walked home through the misty twilight, one thing was clear. Never have I felt more alive than I do right now.
The most difficult situation one can be faced with, is deciding if you should move on or hold on a little longer. Move on, and maybe you'll lose a chance at the best thing that could have happened to you, or hold on, and have the possibility of creating something that could one day be the biggest disaster which ever transpired. I'm not sure where I fall right now, and in times like these, her advice shines brighter than anything else. She told me once that there is no greater achievement in life than knowing you made someone's dream come true. The thing is, I would give anything to be able to do so, I've just never been given the opportunity. So as I sit here as countless times before, I make a silent pledge. My dreams need a break, they'll be waiting for me for the rest of my life. Now I think, it's finally time I focus on making someone else's wildest fantasies come to fruition. Who knows, if I find someone who's willing to take a chance on me, I may just succeed.
The most difficult situation one can be faced with, is deciding if you should move on or hold on a little longer. Move on, and maybe you'll lose a chance at the best thing that could have happened to you, or hold on, and have the possibility of creating something that could one day be the biggest disaster which ever transpired. I'm not sure where I fall right now, and in times like these, her advice shines brighter than anything else. She told me once that there is no greater achievement in life than knowing you made someone's dream come true. The thing is, I would give anything to be able to do so, I've just never been given the opportunity. So as I sit here as countless times before, I make a silent pledge. My dreams need a break, they'll be waiting for me for the rest of my life. Now I think, it's finally time I focus on making someone else's wildest fantasies come to fruition. Who knows, if I find someone who's willing to take a chance on me, I may just succeed.
