I hear you call my name...

Sometimes all you can do is close your eyes, take a deep breath, and hope that you don't fall. I feel like I've been here before. I recognise the people, the situations, the subtle changes. I've been here before, I'm sure of it. It's exactly the same as it was, as it will probably always be. Saying things we regret, and regreting all the things we didn't say. The sad part is that I have no idea what to do next. I feel like I should have all the answers in the world, I mean if I really experienced this before I should know what to do, right?

I know who to turn to for guidance, but I'm afraid of what she might say. We haven't spoken in almost 4 years and we probably won't for a long time. The second we would, we would shift back into old rythems, the ones that destroyed us both. We jumped together, we fell together, I wonder if we'll rise together aswell. I'm almost there, just one thing left to do, the final test approaches. Have I changed enough?

I deserve a better ending this time. We all do. Even the ones that tore me down. But at the end, everyone must stand alone. I'm down on my knees when I hear your voice, it takes me everywhere, anywhere. We don't have a choice, faith will do it's job, it always does...