And so he jumped down the rabbit hole...

I did something. And I know you don't agree. But you will, soon. I've always liked drama, and I just wanted this whole process to be special. I was surprised though. Your reaction caught me off guard and I found myself degressing back into old patterns. It's not that I'm disappointed, because I'm really not. It's just that when I pictured myself doing this, I always expected someone to be by my side. I need someone to hold my hand as I step beyond the doors of deceit. I don't know where I'm going, I just know how I want to get there. Maybe I am meant to go through this alone. I'm sure as hell used to it. Maybe I just need to be patient a little longer. Maybe the one, is right around the corner.

I have a theory. Every time we make an important choice, the part we leave behind continues to live the other life we could have had. Now I wonder, what happens when you lose control? When the future has to start, when past wounds have yet to heal. I think I just need to keep moving. I think that's all I can do. Just keep smiling and living. Because for all I know, I may be the only thing keeping somebody from stopping. If I stop moving, what's to keep them from stopping too? We need to stick together, for this world was build to tear us apart. We have to try, even if time might rip us to shreds.