I've decided not to waste my time anymore. Unless it's mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it's not worth my effort. There are too many mediocre things in life, and love shouldn't be one of them. Maybe that's just me being a dreamer again, but this is something I'm really sure about. I might have to wait a little while longer, heck a lot longer, but at least when it comes I'll know it's the real deal. I'm fine staying where I am, I've gotten used to it. First, I need to make sure I'm worth having, so then I'll be the one choosing. And you can be sure that I'll choose someone who loves me without fear, trusts me without questioning, needs me without demanding, wants me without restrictions and accepts me without change.
This whole journey won't end well. I'm sure of that now, yet strangely I'm also content. This is how it's supposed to be. I was never determined to have an easy life. I've always just prayed for the strength to endure a hard one. And I think I'll be needing all the prayers I can get, because it's going to be one hell of a ride from now on. Everything before this was simple. The bigger picture was always clear and sustainable. Now, I can barely see in front of me and even when I'm able to, everything around me just seems so fragile. Destruction is coming, and I realise now it's been a long time coming. This is when I'm truly put the test. This is when the people in my life are put to the test. I wonder how we'll all fare...
This whole journey won't end well. I'm sure of that now, yet strangely I'm also content. This is how it's supposed to be. I was never determined to have an easy life. I've always just prayed for the strength to endure a hard one. And I think I'll be needing all the prayers I can get, because it's going to be one hell of a ride from now on. Everything before this was simple. The bigger picture was always clear and sustainable. Now, I can barely see in front of me and even when I'm able to, everything around me just seems so fragile. Destruction is coming, and I realise now it's been a long time coming. This is when I'm truly put the test. This is when the people in my life are put to the test. I wonder how we'll all fare...
