Karr Karr, bang bang...

I am a detail oriented person. Even something as minor as a breeze can put me off if I'm not prepared for it. I like statistics and check lists and following protocol. I enjoy following the steps. But as much as I love relying on a plan, every now and then I overlook something, I forget to calculate all the anomalies and when that happens all hell breaks lose...

Did you ever walk into a room full of people and you knew that every single one of them is judging you? Whispering and thinking all sorts of diabolical things they can use to hurt you. I'm not sure I want to go through that again. I can choose, can't I? That's what life is suppose to be about, making your own choices, choosing your own path, not blindly following the demands placed upon you. Yes, I have a choice, the only question is, if I'm strong enough to make it...

It's the accidents that turn out to be the most interesting parts of our day, of our life. The people we never expected to show up, the turn of events we would have never chosen for ourselves. All of a sudden you find yourself somewhere you never imagined you could be and it's either nice or it takes some getting used to. Still you know you'll find yourself appreciating it down the line. So I go to sleep each night, thinking about tomorrow. Going over my plans. Making my lists and checking them twice, hoping I predicted everything, so I can avoid the fear and suffering that come with the unknown...